Backtrack 3 years ago…..
As I sat on the hardwood floor of my dream home…
How did I get here?
How did my marriage come to an end?
I still remember..
On our wedding day, “he” was so happy to marry me that he teared up as he said his vows to me.
At that instant moment, I thought to myself. “Wow! He really loves me!”
Then…..
I became his trophy wife, I didn’t date much before I met him.
I didn’t know how to love myself before I loved him.
I didn’t know how to fill up my own cup.
When he turned his attention away from me & became the workaholic he was in my marriage-
I didn’t see him much.
Our “love” slowly died.
Day after day..
Year after year..
You see…
I allowed him to slip away…
I allowed myself to focus on how he was not there, in my sadness, in my despair..
I allowed myself to use the “image” of our wedding day to convince myself that he did love me.
I allowed myself to believe that this was how marriage was supposed to be.
The culture, gender, family and societal conditionings blinded me…
My marriage slowly turned into GAME OVER!
How did I get here?
I remember that day clearly as that’s the day I CHOSE myself.
Choose wisely.
Do not settle.
Trust your intuition.
It is never too late.
Agree?
～ Love you more ❤️
Kolline