Drip.
Drop.
What is that sound?
I can’t sleep.
I can’t focus.
What is that sound?
I keep hearing.
I get up from my bed.
Every night.
Walking like a zombie.
Looking for that sound.
Who is making that annoying noise?
For hours…
For days…
I numb myself…
What’s wrong with me?
I feel empty.
I feel cold.
I feel angry.
I feel hurt.
I feel pain.
I feel lost.
I feel alone.
Drip.
Drop.
Drip.
Drop.
I continue my days.
To help my clients.
Then.
I realized.
That’s not a sound from outside of my body.
I finally found out.
It’s coming from my heart.
Oh..
Oh no…
What happened?
That’s right.
I forgot again.
My heart is broken.
In millions of pieces.
Drip. Drop.
Drip. Drop.
That’s the sound of my blood..
Dripping from my broken heart
For seconds…
For minutes…
For hours….
For days…..
Stop!
Please!
I beg you.
Stop the bleeding.
I can’t take this no more!
It’s like going through death.
It’s like grieving the loss of someone..
Who-
I deeply loved.
I deeply cared about.
Like no one else before.
Except..
He is still alive.
I know he is alive.
Perhaps-
He’s still wounded from his past.
Perhaps-
He lives a double life.
Perhaps-
He thinks this is too good to be true.
Perhaps-
He doesn’t think he deserves me.
So again-
He pulls away.
He shuts down in communication.
This is not acceptable.
This is simply non-committal.
Why?
Because…
Actions speak louder than words.
But.. I don’t understand.
Why is it MY heart to break?
I didn’t do nothing wrong.
I know I didn’t.
Because..
I made a CHOICE.
To remove from this energy..
To remove from this pain.
Of a waiting game.
So-
I set my heart to break.
I set a timer.
No more waiting.
I told myself.
I am done waiting.
Ready?
5. 4. 3. 2. 1.
I set my heart to break.
Into millions of pieces.
I broke my own heart.
Why?
Because I am brave.
Because I am strong.
Because I am limitlessly abundant.
Ready. Set. Go.
Drip. Drop.
Drip. Drop.
That is the only way..
I can heal.
Agree?
～ Love you more ❤️
Kolline